Angels or Devils ..

I love this song! It is by Dishwalla. This is a great band!!

angels or devils
(Dishwalla)

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

well I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
and are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I were to give in - give it up
- and then take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
it could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
i'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

will there be hopes ?

For all of my life, I never worry if I could get a job when I enter the working arena. Life seems so be peaceful. I just have to complete my education and find a stable job. Mmm, maybe get married and start a family. Everything seems to be on track. After I joined NTU, Life doesn’t seem that simple. Everyone here is smart (maybe that is why they can get into NTU). Even though we have piles of readings, many of my coursemates still manage to complete them. Sometimes, I wonder how do they get all the facts into their brains.

After the ordeal, I always encourage myself to live life with just happiness. Whatever I can’t achieve, it doesn’t matter. Don’t force things. The more you force it, the more unhappy you will be. I took things easily, maybe way too easily.

Biao ge’s email recruitment for research assistant woke me up. In a short paragraph, he mentioned about gaining advantageous experiences and testimonial from him which will improve our employability. Even right now we are still in school, planning for the future seems to top the priority of many. We are so competitive now. I wonder how the stupid me going survive out there. How am I going to provide my parents a better life?


P.S. It is doom day. I don’t understand what is going on for culture.

STOP.

I vow to stop eating sharkfin. I caught the Earth Report on Channel News Asia. I know that they cut off the fins from the sharks and throw them back to the ocean. The sharks will die eventually. However, I didn’t know that those freaks, they cut the sharks so deeply from their mid torso and throw them back into the ocean. It’s like, they are still alive, feeling very single shot of pains from the cut and left die. I was tempted to convert to vegetarian. But.. I doubt I will survive. I hate vegetable! =[

I am reading astronomy notes now. I am very impressed by the intellects in the past. They made so many profound discoveries impact on our life greatly and advance humanity to an amazing point. Nicholas Copernicus overturned the erroneous geocentric model that Claudius Ptolemy introduced and spurred deeper explorations into the universe. Galileo pointed the first telescope at the sky and make spectacular discoveries. They have contributed some much to humanity.

Looking at present, there are a lot more advancements and inventions in the light of modernity. Many do benefit us and bring us comfortable lifestyle. However, a lot of these advancements are causing tremendous disruptions to the environment, other species and even our own kind. Sometimes, I wonder.. What are we actually doing to ourselves? Are we destructing our own homeland?

wishing for a tree house ...

It is raining now. The cool breeze drops my eyelids. Hais. I was stoning, staring at the pictures on my wall, I couldn’t help wondering how would it be like to camp in a tree house during the rain. Sitting in the house, shielded from the raindrops and embraced by the cool breeze. It is a paradise.! I definitely want to try that some day. Mmm., how does it feel to swing on that swing and glaze at the twinkling stars ? WA! I must build a TREE HOUSE one day! wishing...

missing y o u .

Didn’t want to start another blog. This is my fourth one. I am so tired of creating a new one since I kept losing my password or username. But I am so lonely. It is the exam period. Everyone is busy mugging. It is inconsiderate to disturb them at this kinda critical moment. My sis took off this noon.. to Taiwan. The house is nothing but plain silence (mmm except for the television, haha). It is kinda ironic. When my sis was at home, I find her irritating (sometimes, not all the times la). Especially, when she shouts next to my ears to talk to my mum when we were watching TV. That really drives me to verge!

Now that she will be away for 8 days, it’s hard to deal with the silence. I guess this is why we always say that we never treasure things we have until they are gone. It really feels warm to be at home. My mum really takes good care of me. She makes sure that I have my meals regularly and rubs my sore ankle. I am touched. After staying in the hall, I realized no place is as comfortable and welcoming than Home. I am glad that I realize it now. At least it is not too late……