This week readings are so chim sia! It is so abstract until I think I am alienated from it. Totally turned off from reading the next sentence. Hais! This will add on to my backlog pile of readings. Sian da half de!!! Arugh.

Damn tired!! I think I am tired to the extent that I am denied of the capacity for any major emotion (well, other than super sian!). University is really busy. I couldn't help but wonder university really trains us to be a GOOD PROLETARIAT . A good worker that the boss will love. One who work with minimum rest! It sets us off in the competition to the top!

It sucks to feel that my life evolves around that area! I am missing out alot of things. Rainbow's daughter's birthday, my auntie's labor (until now I haven't even seem the baby yet lo!) and I am missing out alot of things in other people life. my home seems to be confined to that bed to me. Well, some would say it is a matter of time management. But how much time one has? It is that same 24 hours day after day. And sometimes, I think it is becoming a obligation to do certain things. That saying "No, I am not going." , "No, I don't want to do it" are hard. How can you can you squeeze everything within that span of the waking moment?

The pace is taxing. Just feel like stoning and staring at the sea now. Muhaha!